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The rejection was brutal. At the age of 16, Priscilla Frederick-Loomis attended a model agency casting session in New York City where she was told that she was “too heavy.”
Even now at the age of 31, those two words still play on the Olympic high jumper’s mind. Raised by a single mother in New Jersey, Loomis also toyed with the idea of becoming an actor and that’s a dream she hasn’t given up on as she has pursued her athletics career.
“I’m going to use track and field as a way to make a name for myself,” Loomis, who is a two-time Pan American Games silver medalist and competed at the 2016 Olympics in Rio, tells CNN Sport from her home in the US. She represented Antigua and Barbuda, where her father is from.
Pursuing a career in track and field hasn’t been easy.
“When you are trying to be an elite athlete, on top of trying to get signed on, on top of dealing with coaches, you also have, the pressures, one for me, of being an African-American female representing a Caribbean island. And you’re adding on top of all that body shaming.”
Loomis competes in the women’s high jump final at the Pan American Games in August 2019 in Lima, Peru.
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‘Don’t eat … jump better’
If the modelling industry left Loomis scarred and dissatisfied with her shape, then perceptions of her weight have also impacted her sporting ambitions.
Even though she never thought she had an eating disorder, Loomis remembers a conversation she had with her college nutritionist, asking: “‘How can I be anorexic and be an athlete?’”
“When I said to my nutritionist that I want to be anorexic, never did I mean I want to have an eating disorder. The power of the word wasn’t apparent to me.
“Now, I look back like and think, ‘What the hell was wrong with me? I didn’t even realize a lot of female athletes have eating disorders.”
But at that point in her career, that’s what Loomis felt she had to do to be successful given she was 158 lbs and is 5 ft 10 tall, which she noted is six inches shorter and at least 20 pounds more than her rivals.
“In my head, it was common sense: don’t eat a lot, look better, jump better,” said Loomis, who remembers a time at college when her then coach Richard Fisher advised her to grab something to eat after a training session.
“I wanted an ice cream, a little ice cream,” she says as she demonstrated how small the size was.
Except another coach told Loomis to put the ice cream down.
“In my head, that stuck with me for so long because I was like, ‘I’m making bad decisions. I’m fat,’” says Loomis.
Loomis competes in the high jump final at the 2018 Commonwealth Games.
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‘One in a billion’
According to US-based eating disorder expert Dr. Gayle Brooks our culture emphasizes and overvalues thinness as the health and beauty ideal.
“When this cultural value system is combined with the pressures of athletic competition, which places an emphasis on diet, appearance, size and weight to achieve peak performance, it places some athletes at high risk of developing disordered eating and possibly eating disorders,” Dr. Brooks told CNN Sport.
Dr. Brooks is the vice president and chief clinical officer for the Renfrew Center, a US-based clinic specializing in eating disorders treatments. Over Brooks’ 30 year career, she has treated many patients who suffer from eating disorders and acted as the eating disorders specialist in the HBO film Thin.
According to a US study – Prevalence of Eating disorders among Blacks in the National Survey of American Life – anorexia was the rarest eating disorder among African American adults and adolescents, while binge eating was the most prevalent eating disorder among adults and adolescents.
“We are really understanding more and more that eating disorders are not just a White, suburban women’s disease, and that, you know, for a long time the belief was that women of color, particularly Black women, were protected culturally from developing eating disorders,” said Dr. Brooks.
As she trained for her first Olympic appearance in 2016, Loomis adhered to a strict diet.
“I would eat super healthy and super clean, be on it for a month. One time I was just like, ‘I really would love a donut, or I really would love a cupcake’ and I have a sweet tooth.”
However, according to then-coach Richard Fisher, Loomis wasn’t eating enough.
“We started working together, she was eating maybe three meals a day tops. Everything was low and minimum.
“She would be so hungry, she would eat unhealthy things as anyone, and her lack of nutrition was hindering her from performing the correct way that she needed to.”
The track and field coach adds: “A lot of coaches look at, I would say the average high jumper who’s professional and look at their height and their weight ratio.
“They use that as the standard for what they believe an athlete should be, which in reality is not true all the time. Yes, it might be the perfect standard of what you want. But a lot of these athletes, you have to realize, are one a billion.
“Priscilla always used to say to me, ‘I’m the shortest, fattest high jumper out there.’”
Once she’s finished competing Loomis wants to pursue an acting career.
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‘Loving myself’
According to World Athletics, in a statement sent to CNN: “There is no one kind of body measurement requirement to qualify for the Olympics. That is not the case. There is no such requirement. The qualifying standards are all based around performance.”
Last year World Athletics released a Nutrition Consensus Statement providing the latest research and guidance around nutrition to athletes, coaches and administrators.
In a statement sent to CNN Sport, the International Olympic Committee also said it “stands for non-discrimination as one of the founding pillars of the Olympic Movement, which is reflected in the Olympic Charter, Fundamental Principle 6.
“The enjoyment of the rights and freedoms set forth in this Olympic Charter shall be secured without discrimination of any kind, such as race, colour, sex, sexual orientation, language, religion, political or other opinion, national or social origin, property, birth or other status.
“Furthermore, athletes’ safety and wellbeing is a priority and a core value for the IOC, which is committed to leading and supporting the Olympic Movement in the implementation of safeguarding measures, in line with its mission stated in the Olympic Charter to promote safe sport and the protection of athletes from all forms of harassment and abuse.”
Even Loomis’ teammates were all too quick to chime in with disparaging comments about her appearance.
After Loomis’ appearance at the 2015 Outdoor World Championships in Beijing, she says she was called “thick” and “heavy” by her teammates from Antigua and Barbuda. And that was after she had just competed on the track.
The Antiguan and Barbuda Olympic Committee did not immediately respond to CNN Sport’s request for comment.
Three years later she placed fifth in the high jump at the Commonwealth Games in Australia. She went to the bar to grab a beer to celebrate when a man, who recognized Loomis from her famous purple hair, came up to her and said, “Oh, I saw you on TV. If you would drop a few kilos, you would have performed better.”
As a result of those comments, Loomis says she would drink a pot of coffee to dehydrate herself to appear slim on screen.
Loomis is currently working with a female coach, Lauren Biscardi, a former New York state champion in high jump, who the 31-year-old athlete says has “changed my professional career. She has helped me love training, love myself and has allowed me to feel.”
Loomis competed at Rio in 2016 and has ambitions to compete at the Tokyo Olympics and at Beijing 2022.
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Cleaning business
Growing up, the African American athlete says she did not see anyone she could relate to in the advertising industry. She says she wanted to be “light skinned,” but as she has discovered the idea of self-love, Loomis realized that she does not want other women “to wish they had to be different to be pretty.”
“I do think that the color of my skin and my beautiful chocolate skin color are sometimes deemed as negative and not marketable,” added Loomis.
“Viola Davis said it best, ‘If you’re darker than a paper bag, you’re deemed not sexy.’
Off the track, Loomis has had to be creative in finding ways to fund her sporting career.
“I make $12,000 a year,” she says, referring to her sporting income. “When people hear that, they’re like, ‘There’s no way,’” she says, “I’m like, ‘Yes I have an Olympic solidarity with Antigua and it’s $1,000 a month but that has to cover everything, which it doesn’t.”
For her Olympic appearance in 2016, she had to move in with her coach Fisher and start her cleaning business.
Now, she lives with her husband Kenneth Loomis, a high school teacher and coach, but she still oversees the cleaning business.
“It gets exhausting. It gets tiresome. I clean just about three to four times a week. All of my clients are about an hour to an hour and a half away. So, with that, I have to start by 8 a.m. I’ll clean for four hours.”
“My pain is valid, my perception is valid, and my success is valid,” says Loomis.
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She trains two to three hours after she’s done cleaning.
“As much as most people think that I’m making all this money, I’m just, you know, faking it till I make it,” says Loomis, who is now training to take part at the 2021 Tokyo Olympics and the 2022 Winter Olympics in Beijing.
Her goal is to become a three-time Olympian and if she makes it to Beijing – Loomis plans to compete in the monobob, the one-person bobsled event.
Of those acting ambitions when she finally leaves track and field behind, Loomis says she wants to start attending acting classes, adding that Storm, Captain Marvel, Wonder Woman are the three superheroes that she dreams of playing.
“I want to entertain people. I want to entertain large crowds. I want to make them feel things the same way that I feel from movies and get these emotions.
“Right now, at 31, I look back and realize that my story is incredible. My pain is valid, my perception is valid, and my success is valid. I’m not just another strong Black woman, I’m a powerful voice that won’t allow other opinions to weigh her down or belittle herself. That’s what makes me a winning athlete.”